Succubus

Belief, I believe now, more than ever that we inherit bad chi, bad, unresolved karma from our parents and possibly our ancestors. ( on a side note...The love of my life is amazing. But it has been a struggle for us to stay together. We have both gotten in a rut and kind of lost ourselves and are at a point where we need to look in ourselves and at our relationship to see if we should stay together. Though we are still doing the "couples" things. ) We recently went to visit his mother and grandmother for Mothers Day. As soon as we got to their house I felt drained. Like I ran miles and was exhausted. Shortly after the tired feeling I started to feel depresses, like every breath I took caused my heart to break into a million, over and over and over again. It made me want to cry, it made me doubt all the feelings inside, it made me doubt my "man", it made me doubt life. I've never felt that before. Visiting them I always felt drained, but never the heart ache. I instinctively physically started to block my man from their viewing, trying to absorb their negativity. In doing so i felt even more drained, even more sad. But I did it anyway because usually when we go visit them HE is very snippy and snappy with them with a permanent scowl when we are with them. But I was able to absorb all the energy from them so it didn't affect him. For six hours i did this, to my surprise he felt it, he was able to see it and feel my power deflecting their bad energy. He said it was a bright orange like citrine. I've never seen him able to smile when we are with them. He usually fights them, debates every statement they make and he and I both leave angry and frustrated. Not this time, this time he was able to relax, enjoy their time together, laugh! It was amazing. Maybe a holistic career is calling me...We will see.